You can’t kill essential npcs in a multiplayer game, fhs. 
On single player mode it could be an option, but do we really want devs to waste the time it takes to create such option? On a second though, scratch that. It would have been better spent on that than on the dying bench. 
@jmk1999 , I just restarted Dragon’s Dogma again.
My new p4wn. Meet Miu (Kira, but the moniker is Miu).
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