My condolences to you @sestus2009 and your family on your loss. She is still with you and will be waiting for you when you cross over.
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Words are feeble things, but my thoughts are with you @sestus2009 . Please take care of yourself and know that there are those of us who wish we could take the burden from you and are frustrated beyond words that we canāt be there for you in real life.
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I know but last it was like we could figure out we could still play the game and work tv remotes hopefully no dreams tonight
Thanks again everyone
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I am truly sorry for your loss, Sestus. I canāt begin to imagine how hard this must be for you. Her memory will live on through every one of us here who she talked to. There really are no words anyone can say to make it better, but know that we are all here for you.
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Dear @sestus2009, I am so sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you in these hard times, and I hope you are surrounded by close family and good friends to help you get through this 
I hope you donāt mind it, but I got inspired by our dear friend @stelagel and made a little memorial on officiel 1046 EU pve server where I currently play on.
I chose the location in the screenshot because it was roughly the place where I, for the first time way back in beginning of early access, entered the Exiled Lands and saw the glory of Noob River.
I still remember the jaw dropping first view, and thought why not select this beautiful place as a memorial for your wife Kate 
I also left a letter on the ground to Kate for people to read and understand why it is there.
I also know that you and Kate only played on PS US servers, so if you want to read my letter to her, it is below the Memorial picture.
Letter to Kate (click on it to read)
Dear Kate(Nitecat).
Iām so sorry you had to leave.
I never played with you and your husband Sestus, but I felt that I knew you.
You were playing on Playstation and I am playing on pc.
You lived in US and I live in EU.
But I saw and sometimes talked with you and Sestus on the Funcom forums.
I got the feeling that you and Sestus were more than just partners in life, but also shared the same passion for Conan Exiles.
My impression was that you were a kind and caring person.Farewell Kate
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@sestus2009 I am so sorry my fellow exile. If you ever, and i mean ever need an ear, dm me. Long story short, i lost my fiancee last March to aneurism overnight in her sleep, just 43 years old. I have a heavy heart for you. Just know the pain you feel now is the amount of love she was, and always will be, in your soul.
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My condolences @sestus2009 really sorry for your loss 
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Iām deeply sorry to hear of your loss, @sestus2009. May God bless her and give you strength during your time of mourning until you are by her side once more.
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This for @sestus and anyone else who has had a loss so close to thier heart. Music is a way to meditate on the memories for me.
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That is cool appreciate it. Tomorrow I might logging and save her character.
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And now my heart is heavy for you also @biggcane55. I am so very sorry for the loss of your partner. That is such a young age and a tragic loss. My thoughts are now with you as well as Sestus2009 and poor Nitecat. Both so sudden. [two flowers now] 
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Hi @sestus, maybe this doesnāt help much. The truth is that I am very sad about what happened to you. I only watched when she helped others on the forum and sometimes she lost her patience. We never spoke but I do remember that she supported your comments. Iām sorry friend. Thank you because you are always kind to everyone and help others here when they need it. Heās probably watching how you handle this situation. The angels are always at Godās side. Difficulties will arise but you must be strong and not let yourself be consumed by evil and bad thoughts, remember that they are probably watching you. Live as you always knew each other. being you @sestus
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@sestus2009 i already said it in private messaging immediately after she passedā¦ when you told me the other dayā¦ but once again, my condolences. I know you guys considered joining @Marylambs and I on our server, but never got around to it. Now she never will. Truly sadā¦ however stay strong and donāt give into despair. Weāre all very appreciative of your positivity on this forum. I pray you will continue to bring that same light, even if it may seem a bit more difficult. All the best, friend.
@stelagel nice memorial. Maybe funcom will consider a real memorial in game at some point.
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thanks, but poor that energy towards @sestus. He needs it now more tgan i do.
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If this oneās words could remove pain, rather than sometimes being able to distract from it, this one would find more to say.
āThe flesh that lived and laughed and loved will be eaten by plague
So let the memories be good for those who stay.ā
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There is nothing wrong in talking to her as if she would still stand right next to you. You are mourning and it helps your brain to cope. It also takes away a little bit of this inside empty feeling that overwhelms you when you loose someone you love. You shouldnĀ“t suppress your feelings. Just let it all out. Its ok, it really is.
People that have no experience with dead and mourning might not understand this but there is only so much we can handle before we break. It doesnĀ“t matter if someone thinks you are crazy talking to your love or the cats and dogs, because you are the one that suffers and mourns and has to deal with the lose, not them.
I wish I could take the pain away from you and give you some peace. But I canĀ“t. All I can say from personal experience is that it gets easier with time. You will still miss her every day but it wonĀ“t hurt that much anymore. And until then you keep going. One day at a time.
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I am so sorry for your loss @sestus2009!
It hurts to hear about this and I wish you and your family and friends a lot of strength during this difficult time!
As long as a person is remembered, they live on. Iām sure your wife will live on in many thoughts for a very long time.
Thatās why you should continue to tell everything and ask her things!
You will surely know her opinions, answers and stories and so she will be there for you forever!
I find it difficult to express my thoughts in English. I hope the meaning of my words is not lost too much!
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My heartfelt condolences to you, @sestus2009! Wish you well in this difficult time.
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Thanks everyone you give me hope 
I have a Memorial Idea for our server. Hard to type now. Watery eyes shaking hands please know you all help me thru this.
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That is really sweet of you @biggcane55, though I am sorry to hear about your loss as well.
I have no doubt that whatever you do it will be amazing. I do not have Conan Exiles on my playstation so I do hope that you, or someone else will be able to upload some screenshots.
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